I'm a mother of 5 beautiful talented children, wife (seperated), and best friend. I am 5'3 128lbs, non drug user, smoker / drinker, party nor negative person. I believe that Jesus Christ is the son of GOD and He died but rose again on the third day...all for my sins. Things have been a struggle for me since I was a little girl. My parents died when I was 11yrs old. Before her passing I was being sexual molested by family members, emotional and mentally abused by other family members. It all started when I was 7yrs old til 11yrs old, a little while after my moms passing. I told no one in the family about it because they were all drunks and negative people they call me a liar and still the same til this very day. I'm an honest, trusting, dependable, hardworker who is very much eager to learn new things and stay determined. I am doing very well with being persistant when it comes to The KINGS of KINGS. I love Him with everythinhg that i have left in me, my heart soul and mind. At the age of 14yrs old I grew tired of the nightmares and abuse from my family so i sought help from school counsler. Ms. Tiffnay Allen, was who I found safety with besides my aunt Cheryl and play mom Diane. My sister Shawn and GOD-sister / bestfriend Stacey Toy knew about it. So the system got involved because I had no one to take me in, so i was homeless and an orpan. I cant even begin to explain the torture and pain and hurt i went through but, GOD was with me. At that time I wasnt sure what to do but fall to my knees and pray. Just like I did when my mommy was suffering and dying (I asked GOD to end her pain, set her free and take her home), and he did. Amen. I lived from place to place so many times a month I never could keep track. Nobody really wanted me after I had told, my family turned against me, stay the same today. But I have always been the back bone for them and never got a thank you but its ok because GOD said it for them. I stayed in the system until I was 21yrs old, by 18yr I was working and had sinned (because I knew not what I do now). I had 2 precious children by someone i regret. We all make mistakes and yes back then I wish I had someone to guide me. I wasnt never out of control just lonesome and an outcast you could say...still am. None of my family would call me or let me call them, give me food, money, clothing and/shelter for 8yrs i did it all on my own (work,take care of my babies alone), move around to get stable to finish my schooling. GOD is awesome after reflcting back on my life and breaking those miles stones with the hammer of CHRIST, WE are set free. I then met the man whom i wanted to spend eternity with: my husband Jose D. Montero. We got together and gotten to know one another very well and became a family & moved in together. He would always help me with Destine & Ta'Viun over at his place. As years went by we had 5 children of our own: D'Reco, Sakerra' , Jose Jr., Cristan D., De'Marco Montero. 2 of my beautiful handsome baby boys (twins) resides with the LORD now, amen. My husband left me and our family for someone else (bad enough he brung another child into our marriage, that his family adores), but mines are'nt considered blood to them. He lives in Orlando Fla. with some girl who needs to realize hes still legally my husband and that is a great sin. He took all the money we had to our name 1,200 and the truck, packed up and left without telling me (I had to figure it out months later). He has only contacted my for the childrens sake 7 times out of 2 whole long years. He left us homeless and we had to get back in the system once again because of him and sleep place to place, in cars and shelters. I never wanted my children to know what was happening so i never told them but, this will if something ever happens to me in the future, theyll know the truth. Praise GOD. I had to tell my babies "oh yeah we're staying here & there because GOD WILL BE GIVING US A NEW HOME & TRUCK& JOB soon". I couldnt tell him any other way but that to protect them from the hurt I know theyll feel once their older to read this. As a mommy it was my way of comforting them as we struggled for so long (2yrs). I humbled myself before GOD and askd JESUS to pray before His feet for my/ our sins and asked Him to help me forgive Anthony for molesting me, my whole entire family for bashing my mothers name alive & dead and the abuse they put me (little brother)thru. To help me forgive like He can so I may forgive my husband for not attending nor helping with the burial cost of our son's funeral. None of his family or friends showed nor made a call or sent a card, nothing til this day. Their from puertorico and they say their not racist but dont know what else to say. My children and I were never welcomed his mom or sister/brother house nor call. I beggd her to come help me when my first baby boy Jose Jr while I held him dying in my arms. she told me no I'm at the store but sorry its not my problem. i forgave again. second passing,nothing, i forgave again. So what do i do next? Forgive? Let go and forget? Or move on and not look back? I tried all of these and it didnt last. So i have flaws to like everyone else. I struggle and battle with conditions and disorders called: OCD, BIPOLAR 1, and PERSONALITY DISORDERS (DID). But i always ask for forgivness from GOD and those whom i have hurt. So this is a test everyone everyday we wake up life is a pop quiz, you never know what your gonna get. And with this ending I say lets pray: DEAR HEAVENLY FATTHER WE COME TO YOUR THRONE IN THE NAME OF JESUS CRIST. WE WORSHIP YOU FATHER AND THANK YOU, WE KNEEL AT YOUR FEET AND BOW BEFORE OUR KING. LORD I ASK THAT YOU CONTINUE TO TOUCH EACH AND EVERYONE OF US FATHER. ANOINT OUR HEADS WITH YOUR NAME IN IT GOD. THAT YOU FORGIVE OUR TODAY, YESTERDAY AND TOMORROW LORD. HELP THOSE IN NEED MOST LORD even if that makes me last BLESS U ALL, IN JESUS NAME WE PRAY AMEN AMEN AMEN. / To anyone reading this you can and will overcome the things satan has put in you path, together we stand as one people of GOD and fight back and claim what is ours, our health, strength, courage, mind, flesh, heart, sight, sound, homes, employment, respect for others/self, morals, brotherly love, honesty, trust, sabbath day, and our victory, we claim it all back right now in the Holy name of JESUS CHRIST, amen.
Who I'd like to meet:
GOD / JESUS CHRIST, my parents, my twin boys, michael jackson, MLK.
Hello Sister! It seems like it has been forever since we last spoke! I hope all is going well. Thank you for all your support. I have decided to continue with school and start working on my bachelors degree in Human Services. I think that is where God wants me. Also, I have been presented with the opportunity to stay in the job I'm at now, so if you could pray about my decision for that, I would really appreciate that. Also, I am moving in a couple of weeks in with a family about 5 miles south of where I live now, so I'll also be closer to work. I praise God for the great doors He is opening for me right now. Anthony and I are doing very well, and I'm excited to be going to NC in a couple of weeks to see him. :) ...Have a blessed day girl! <3
Hey dear sister! How are you doing today? It was great talking to you yesterday. I still can't find you on Facebook for some silly reason. This is the first time I've been back on this site since early 2009! Its been too long! <3 ya girl!
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